I'm so sorry to hear of your troubles. But please know that these hard times will pass. I really believe God has a plan and purpose for you. It's just that the enemy is trying very hard to discourage you. Don't you let him.
If you would, I think it would help you to pray this prayer:
I am praying to you through your son, Jesus. Please bind the voice of the enemy from speaking lies to me about me and my life. In fact, I say to the enemy now, SHUT UP in Jesus name.
Lord, thank you for forgiving my sins. Father I give you all my life and ESPECIALLY my troubles. You say that all things work for the good, and I believe you. Show me, in time, how these troubles will also work for the good. Thank you that the enemy cannot win. Thank you that this pit is really a stepping stone for your plan and your purpose for me.
Lord, I look forward to see how you will move on my behalf. I praise you and thank you!
Don't forget, God's got your situation in hand!
Please, do not take your life. Please allow time and God to heal your heart. I know that you are hurting. But others have been where you are, including me, and have walked, one step at a time, out of the darkness.
You will too. You are going to make it.
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Here's what I recommend to you:
- We need other believers for encouragement. Find a church home. See if you can find a small Bible study of people in your age range. Call some of the bigger churches in your area and see if they have anything to offer for your age group. This could be a home Bible study or a Sunday school class.
- Listen to inspirational music. There's a lot of Christian music in different styles. Maybe you've got a great Christian radio station in your area or maybe you can find one on the web that plays a style of Christian music that speaks to you like http://www.klove.com/listen/. You can also go to a Christian bookstore and listen to their CDs until you find something that helps you to feel worshipful.
- Read the book, Purpose Driven Life. This is a great Bible study and you need to have the Word in your life every day.
- Take time to read the Bible. If you don't have a Bible, there are versions available on the web that you can download.
Don't do anything to harm yourself. You are so loved. Please give your situation time, please allow God time to move. He may be waiting for you to give in to Him, to say, God I will trust you, no matter what. Try trusting God and see what will happen.
Also, please go in for a medical checkup and tell your doctor about how you feel emotionally. Your doctor may have medications that can help you get over this 'bump' in the road.
Also, I highly recommend counseling. You may find a pastor in your church or other local church or some other professional who will understand and help you with your struggles.
WE ARE PRAYING FOR YOU!