I'm so sorry to hear of your troubles. But please know that these hard times will pass. I really believe God has a plan and purpose for you. It's just that the enemy is trying very hard to discourage you. Don't you let him.
If you would, I think it would help you to pray this prayer:
Lord, thank you for forgiving my sins. Father I give you all my life and ESPECIALLY my troubles. You say that all things work for the good, and I believe you. Show me, in time, how these troubles will also work for the good. Thank you that the enemy cannot win. Thank you that this pit is really a stepping stone for your plan and your purpose for me.
Lord, I look forward to see how you will move on my behalf. I praise you and thank you!
Don't forget, God's got your situation in hand!
Please, do not take your life. Please allow time and God to heal your heart. I know that you are hurting. But others have been where you are, including me, and have walked, one step at a time, out of the darkness.
To read my story, click here.
Here's what I recommend to you:
Don't do anything to harm yourself. You are so loved. Please give your situation time, please allow God time to move. He may be waiting for you to give in to Him, to say, God I will trust you, no matter what. Try trusting God and see what will happen.
Also, please go in for a medical checkup and tell your doctor about how you feel emotionally. Your doctor may have medications that can help you get over this 'bump' in the road.
Also, I highly recommend counseling. You may find a pastor in your church or other local church or some other professional who will understand and help you with your struggles.
WE ARE PRAYING FOR YOU!